At my WTF appointment, Dr. B. kindly suggested that if I lost some weight I might have better results with my next IVF cycle. I've jumped all over this and am funneling all my energies into losing weight. In my magical thinking world, this is a guarantee of success. Whatever works.
- I've joined Weight Watchers Online and have been obsessively counting points
- I've started exercising 6 days a week. Monday through Friday I wake up most days (unless I have to be at work at a weird time) at 4 a.m. and am on my treadmill doing a couch to 5 k program or lifting weights at 4:15 a.m. It's a bit crazy. I'm still half asleep for the first 10 minutes of my workouts.
- I've done 3 1/2 hours of cardio this past week and 1 1/2 hours of lifting weights.
- I also walk my dog about 3 to 5 hours a week. I don't "count" that as working out since he usually operated in "slow" mode.
- I've read The Fertility Diet, and am incorporating these suggestions into my plan, although the milk thing still has me confused.
I've never been more motivated to be successful. Truthfully, I'm a bit obsessive about it. Since I joined Weight Watchers one week after my miscarriage, I've lost 15 pounds. I've lost 10 pound since I last met with Dr. B and he gave me this suggestion.
I think it is generally a positive thing to be so focused. It makes me feel like I am doing something to give myself some chance at success. It makes me feel a bit more in control, although I know I'm not in control. On the other hand, the very first thing I think of every single day is the baby I lost. I'm not sure if I would think about that anyway, or if it is more in the forefront of my mind because the alarm is going off at 4 a.m. so I can workout to help improve my chances of a take home baby. Also, I might need to work on resetting expectations once I start my IVF cycle in January / February. Right now it is helpful to think that all this work is making a huge difference and will guarantee success. When I start cycling, I'll need to get a dose of reality.