Procedures

Well, my hyster.oscopy and polyect.omy went off ok today.  I'm home now and recovering fine.  My mom was unable to take me to the appointment because my sister in law, who is 32ish weeks pregnant with plac.enta pre.via, was rushed to the hospital with bleeding.  My parents drove out there at 11 at night to pick up my 4 1/2 year old niece to bring over for the night.  So, my sister came with me to the appointment.

The procedure itself was a breeze.  I was pretty much awake for it, although not making much sense.  I was able to watch on the screen, which was pretty cool.  I saw Dr. B. take out one polyp.  He said there were a few others, but they were small and he couldn't even grab them with the grabber dealio. 

My sister took me home to my mom's so I could rest for a while.  My niece was there, and is just so adorable.  We had lunch, and she told us her secrets.  Later, she was telling me about one of her dreams about little princesses and knights and fairy godmothers.  I asked he who I was in her dream, and she said I was the mommy of the little princesses.  When I was getting ready to leave, she said that it made her sad because I reminded her of her mommy.  Broke my heart a little bit - so cute.

So, I'm fine.  I have a killer headache and some cramps.  And, I'm annoyed that I'll potentially have bleeding for 2 to 3 weeks.  I'm probably going to bed early tonight and hope to be back on my game tomorrow.  I've kind of gone on a food bender the past two days, so I need to get back on track.  In my defense, today I don't care.  I am eating what is easy to put together.

My sister-in-law is doing ok.  They released her from the hospital and they are heading home.  She isn't on bedrest yet -although for her own sake, I wish the doctor would do so.  She isn't good at "taking it easy."

Thanks for all your support everyone!

Procedure Tomorrow

I am scheduled for my hysteroscopy tomorrow at 10 a.m. with Dr. B.  My mom is taking me.  It should be fun for her to be the random 60 year old in the waiting room.  I love that there will be a handful of people who will look at her and think, "Really?"  My husband is still out of town after breezing back in for 2 nights.  This is going on three weeks now.  I miss him when he isn't here.  A ton.  I'm not used to him being away, but I totally understand that I am lucky compared to others.  The good news is he is earning tons of overtime.  As I've mentioned, we're planning a vacation.  I think we've settled on Hawaii.  That is my dream vacation, and for my husband, it will be returning home.  He is an Army vet, and was stationed in Hawaii for 3 years before we met.  I love that we'll be able to afford the trip and still stock up our savings account.

In other news, I managed to lock myself out of the house today.  My brother-in-law had to get a giant ladder, put it in my neighbor's yard, climb up to my window, remove the screen, boost up the window - which wasn't locked, and do a roll into my bedroom.  Thankfully, my dog bed was right there to give him a soft landing.  Of course, my non-watch dog didn't bother to get up off the couch.  As a bonus, my dad lectured me on how easy it would be for someone to break in to my house.  I'm still thinking it wouldn't be easy - I think people would be noticed dragging ladders or boosting each other up to get into my bedroom window.  Plus, how would they know if wasn't locked?

Pregnant Women Everywhere

My employee finally fessed up to her pregnancy yesterday.  I took it pretty well.  I've been rehearsing my response for weeks now, so I had time to prepare.  I did call her on the fact that I suspected back in August, and she wasn't really hiding anything by wearing maternity pants and sporting a giant baby bump.  She's due March 8th and is having a boy.  That hurt a bit, because we call the baby we miscarried a boy - even though we don't know for sure.

I did have a hard moment today when I was doing something for work with my boss.  We were discussing staff salaries and if anyone had unpaid medical leave.  She pointed out that last fiscal year, this employee was on maternity leave.  It hit me that she would have maternity leave two fiscal year's in a row.  I think I've been lapped twice, and that truly sucks.

Monday Rambling on Moving Forward

I was at the grocery store today and they had two carts full of baby Halloween costumes on sale for $1.99 each.  I went back twice and almost bought one.  Why do I torture myself?  If I was still pregnant, I'd have a 6 month old next Halloween, who, no doubt, would make an adorable bumble bee.  And, wouldn't that be precious if I had been able to dress the baby as a bumble bee and the dog as a bumble bee?  But, it's not to be.  If I'm lucky enough to get pregnant (and STAY pregnant) in February-ish, I'll still be pregnant in October. 

In other news, I have my hysteroscopy tentatively scheduled for Monday.  Dr. B. wanted to do it on Friday, but I'm out of town.  It is kind of screwed up for scheduling purposes.  I have to call on Monday morning at 8am and find out what time my procedure is scheduled for that day.  I guess they don't know what time to have me come in until they find out what their egg retrieval schedule is for Monday.  Additionally, I have a full day of meetings scheduled for Monday, and will have to reschedule everything.  But, I can't reschedule the candidate I have coming in for an interview.  So, I'll go in to work for a bit (I work at the hospital) and then hopefully walk across the street late morning for my procedure.  To complicate things further, my mom needs to be my ride.  My husband has taken several days off for my medical stuff, and he is likely to still be out of town on Monday (bummer).  Mom's plan is to drive in to work with me, hang out in the cafeteria reading a book and wait for me to call her with my procedure time.  Very inconvenient.  But, I don't know what my choices are at this point.

Anyone have experience with hysteroscopies?  What can I expect?

I wonder if I can convince Dr. B. to schedule it for Monday early afternoon?  That might make my scheduling stuff go much easier.... 

Thanks to everyone for the great vacation ideas.  I am trying to come up with several different options for vacations at different price points so we can make a decision.  I'd love to head to the tropics to a nice all inclusive resort.  I also want to explore heading to SF or San Diego.  It will be cheaper, but not warm in late January when I want to go.  But, that might be ok.

Finally, I hate having my period, cramps, and bleeding like it's going out of style.  I'm just sayin'...

Hello, visitor

Aunt Flo just arrived.  I did a little happy dance.  I've never been so happy to start my period, and am SO ready to move forward!

My husband has been away on a business trip for a week, and is home for 30 hours before departing for another week on business.  I was so happy to see him home, but will really miss him again.  On the other hand, he's earning mucho overtime.  We are dreaming of a nice vacation before starting my next IVF cycle in February-ish.  Where should we go???

Aunt Flo, where are you?

It has been 7 weeks since I had my miscarriage.  I was only pregnant for 7w3d.  I can't believe how fast the time had gone.  I'm in such a better place mentally than I was even a few weeks ago, and am moving forward.  One thing that is stopping me from moving forward is that I haven't gotten my period yet since the miscarriage.    Dr. B. said that I'd likely get my period 4 to 6 weeks after the miscarriage.  However, I bled for about 5 weeks after the miscarriage.  Is this normal?  Anyone who has been there before have any ideas?  I don't chart, so I'm not sure where things are, but I'm pretty sure I ovulated.  And, I've been having massive mood swings the past 2 days.  But, I've also been working my butt off all week painting my house, and have been without my husband (he's been on a business trip) so I'm tired in general.  That could lend to the crankiness.

I am not waiting to start an IVF cycle, so I'm not really in a rush, I just want to close the door on the medical aspects of the miscarriage and move forward.  Plus, I want to schedule my hysteroscopy, and I can't do that until I get my period.  UGH  So frustrated.

A post about pizza

I used to eat pizza.  A lot.  Like 3 times a week sometimes.  It was a problem, really and truly.  Maybe an addiction (please don't mind the crazies I'm sharing here!) The last time I had pizza was September 10th, the day before my miscarriage.  Somehow in my mind these two things - pizza and being pregnant / losing my baby - are linked.  I can't even bear the thought of eating pizza right now because I remember that the last time I ate it I was pregnant, and the next day I miscarried.  I have never gone this long without eating pizza.  It's so weird because I don't even want it any more.  The thought of eating it sounds good for a minute but then I remember.

I used to eat pizza for celebrations or when I was too tired to cook.  It's weird to have my favorite food tied in my mind with something that was so heartbreaking.  I think that at this point, I'd like to hold off on eating it until I have a true reason to celebrate - when I bring home a baby.