Sunday, December 6, 2009

Ornaments

I don't have a themed Christmas tree.  The ornaments we have are mostly those that have been given to us, that we've bought on vacations, or that have a special meaning.  It's fun to put up the tree and see all those special ornaments and remember the trips and the special occasion.  We also have a personalized ornament for each member of our family (and, yes, I've decided that I'm claiming the word "family" for us.  My collection of two people and a slew of animals and an angel baby might not make a family in most people's minds, but I'm claiming "family" nonetheless).  I have a personalized ornament, so does M, the dog, and each of the 3 cats.  Recently, we added a personalized ornament for the baby we lost.

We went to Things Remembered and bought a personalized ornamanent.  It was a mirrored angel with a 2009 charm.  We had it engraved to say "Our Angel" and the name that we gave the baby.   I like having the ornament for the baby and the acknowledgment that he existed for us.  I also like that because the ornament is a mirror, it kind of disappears into the tree.  It is there if you look for it, but it is hard to see unless you look.
For some reason, I feel weird about admitting that we named the baby that we miscarried.  It isn't something that I talk about publicly, but is more a private thing between my husband and myself.  I think it has helped us cope with the loss a bit.  And, If we have future pregnancies, I wanted to try to separate the baby we lost with the baby we carried.  We decided that the baby was a boy, and named him Allan Michael.  It is not the name we would likely have given had he been born, but it is a family name, honors M's Uncle who recently passed away and on whose birthday our egg transfer occurred.

10 comments:

  1. That was a beautiful post. I love the ornament. I love the name and the reasons for it. Thank you for sharing it.

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  2. What a beautiful idea. Thank you for sharing it with us.

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  3. I am an ornament freak too, and we also have ornaments for our cats and for all of our angel babies. Such a nice way to honor our children in heaven. I hope that next Christmas you will have another ornament to buy for your family ;-).

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  4. I also call our little unit of me, DH and the two pups a "family," as well. Our family may not feel complete or whole, but it is a family nonetheless.

    Allan Michael's ornament is beautiful! And, such a wonderful sentiment. I'm glad it brings you a bit of peace!

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  5. I think that's beautiful. Very touching.

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  6. Our ornaments are such a hodge podge mix of important things that have gone on in our life. We will never have that decorator tree, but everytime we decorate the tree we have great laughs and memories! Much better!

    I love your Angel Ornament. Very beautiful.

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  7. Such a beautiful way to honor your family and your angel. I don't think it's weird at all. It's wonderful.

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  8. I love your angel ornament. It's very beautiful! And yes, you, your DH, your slew of animals, and your angel baby are definitely a family.

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