This Christmas has been better than I anticipated so far. I've enjoyed having time to spend with my family, holding my new niece for the first time, and having time to relax. My sisters and brothers and I put on a Christmas skit last night for our extended family - complete with the girls wearing shirts that said "Ho." It was silly and funny. This morning, M and I had a quiet morning alone, and will host my Mom and Dad for dinner tonight. Then, tomorrow we'll have Christmas with just my mom and dad and brothers, sisters, and nieces.
Despite the good times, Christmas lately makes me remember what I don't have. Seeing my brother and his new baby, my cousins little boys, my nieces and nephew - makes me feel a little set apart.
I have a wish for next Christmas. Let me be experiencing the joys of new motherhood. Or, let me be pregnant. Or, let me be beginning the adoption or third party reproduction process. Let me be one step closer to being a mom.
I wish the same to all of you still on this side of the infertility battle. Thanks for all of the support and the community you've shown me this past year. A year ago, I was just starting my quest to get pregnant with the help of my RE. I was alone and lost. A year later, I've been through the ringer with IF, but I've also found the ALI Community. I've learned so much from all of you, and I'm thankful to not be alone on this journey.