I feel at loose ends. I'm no longer pregnant, and no longer trying to get pregnant. During the short time that I was pregnant, I imagined this fall, and how far along I'd be every week. I'd imagine and plan out the things I would be doing: shopping for maternity clothes, clearing out the soon-to-be baby's room, etc. I'd imagine how I'd look and feel and what I'd be doing as a pregnant woman.
I'm no longer pregnant, and what I imagined isn't true. I am also not trying to get pregnant for the time being. I feel confused and out of sorts. I'm just me right now, and I don't remember what that's like. I'm not sure what to do with myself right now, and it's harder than I thought it would be.