Saturday, May 9, 2009


I have always had very vivid dreams. Not as vivid as my sister who sleep walks. Lately though, my dreams have been so vivid and life like that I am actually confused about what is real and what is only a dream. I've had to actually check this fact with my husband to make sure I'm not totally batshit crazy. Last night, I had a dream that I had a dream after which I woke up and couldn't remember if the stuff I dreamt about was real. That was really confusing.

I'm not sure if that's the hormones I'm injecting into my body on a daily basis, or the stress of work and IVF, or both, but it makes for some interesting mornings.

I'm still in a waiting period. I've been on the Lupron for about 4 weeks now. This past week, they upped my dosage to 20 units. Ever since that, I've been exhausted. So flat out tired. I go in on Monday for another blood test and ultrasound. If I don't get good news from that, I don't know what happens. I'm scared and confused and hopeful and angry and depressed all at once - and I haven't even gotten to the hard part yet!

In other news, my sister who was going through IVF is pregnant with a singleton. I'm very excited for them. And, wondering when I get my happy ending too.

1 comment:

  1. I have the most vivid dreams when I am on the meds, too! So strange!

    Hope you get good news at your appointment tomorrow ... 4 weeks on Lupron, wow!