Feeling Peace

I'm so fortunate to live where I live and have so many adoption options to explore.  Last weekend, M and I went to the home of a work acquaintance who had recently adopted a daughter through domestic adoption.  I don't know D. very well, but we had talked last summer when he adopted his daughter.  He is just the nicest guy, and he so kindly invited M and I to his home to meet his baby and hear about his adoption experience.  It was great - and especially great for M to have an adoptive father he could talk to about all of this.  D is a single father, and has an open adoption with the baby's mother.  He had nothing but good things to say about his adoption experience, and it made us feel so hopeful.

Additionally, the husband of a woman I work with is the president of the board of another local adoption agency.  She referred me to this agency, and so far it is at the top of our list.  I like them because they are flexible with what they allow you to do, don't force you to go through a bunch of counseling on your marriage and fertility issues before you are allowed to adopt, and will even give you their blessing to continue to pursue fertility treatments while pursuing adoption.  I like that - my goal is to become a mother - one way or the other.

And, finally, my new sister-in-law used to work at another local adoption agency as an intern.  So, we have that introductory meeting scheduled in the next few weeks. 

I'm starting to feel at peace about this whole adoption process and almost excited that one day, one way, maybe way far into the future, I'll get to be a mom.  I am planning a last ditch IVF cycle this summer, and if that doesn't work, I'm all in for adoption.  Once I turn in our adoption packet (and my big, fat check), I'm even going to start knitting a baby blanket and booties.  For hope.  Because everyone knows a baby can't be born until their knitting is done.