Wednesday, August 12, 2009

5dp3dt

As you can tell from the title, I'm 5 days post 3 day transfer. I'm doing the obsessive symptom evaluating - however I know that each symptom can be attributed to the progesterone. It is so bizarre to think of what can be going on in my body right now.

I'm trying to live in gratitude every day for having this chance and opportunity to become a mother. I've spent some time praying and talking to my embryos telling them how much they are wanted, providing encouragement, and letting them know that as long as they do their best, we'll be happy. We'll love them, the mere possibility of a baby, despite what happens.

I am alternating planning for pregnancy with making a contingency plan for a BFN. I find out my results on Monday, and I am not looking forward to getting that news at work. However, I don't want to POAS. I don't think I can take the disappointment. I have a lunch planned with my good friend on Monday to hopefully celebrate but also perhaps have consolation.

8 comments:

  1. I'm a few days behind you- 3dp3dt. My beta is on the 20th. My boobs are killing me and I'm super moody. Unfortunately, that gives me no clue since I'm taking endometrin 3x a day.

    I hope the rest of the week goes quickly for you and you get good news on Monday!

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  2. I'm praying for you!! I hope you get great news on Monday!

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  3. I so hope this is it for you. I'm sending sticky vibes and hoping Monday comes soon.

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  4. I'm so hoping for you. And I hear you on not anting to POAS, it's nice indulging in the unknown!! So monday is the big day, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Fran

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  5. I'm bad at remembering to ask questions after I get results, so POAS before the beta worked better for me. Plus, since I did it at home, DH was there for the results which made it more of a shared experience than the phone call.

    But I can see where you come from as well.

    I hope your lunch is a celebration!

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  6. Here's to hoping that those symptoms turn out to be the real deal. I hope you get to celebrate at your lunch on Monday!

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  7. I will be thinking and praying for you on Monday! I REALLY hope that your lunch is a celebratory lunch!

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