Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I never thought it made sense.

I have often said (outloud even), that if I got pregnant I wouldn't believe it until I was birthing the baby. The whole concept of conception seemed so miraculous and impossible, that I could never believe it would work for me. Well, I guess the joke's on me - It isn't really possible the get pregnant like a normal person.

No, any baby's of mine will be created in a petri dish. Great.

So, here I am, 32 years old, waiting for my miracle. We are facing male-factor infertility (his boys don't swim, there's not that many of them, and they're kinda funny shaped). I am waiting to start my period. The joke is that my normally pretty regular cycle decided to be 5 days late (and counting). I got suckered into the "hope" thing again and actually POAS. Funny. BFN as expected.

So, I sit here, feeling cramps, with sore ovaries, and staring at the TP each time I go to the bathroom looking for pink. Grrr....

April 1st we head to the RE for our registration visit for IVG/ICSI. Meanwhile, I am trying to get my head together, trying to not drown in pizza, and trying to stay positive.

Trying to make sense of it all.


  1. Stopping by from LFCA to say Welcome! The ALI community is not a place any of us thought we'd find ourselves, but the support and love is a blessing during the struggles of IF.


  2. Here from Lost and Found Connections Abound to say hi and welcome. I hope your stay on this side of the infertility blogosphere is short. I am also dealing with super MFI.

  3. Welcome to the IF blog land! I'm sorry you have to be here, but it is a great community. :) My DH and I are MF, too. Hoping AF comes and your IVF cycle is a success!


  4. Hi there...Fellow MFI-er here stopping by from LFCA! We're getting ready to do our first IVF/ICSI as well...! Welcome to blog-land!