I had my first ultrasound / blood test since I started my Follistim yesterday morning. I dragged my husband with me. Afterwards, we went out to breakfast (blueberry cashew pancakes) and then headed to the nursery to buy some flowers for the backyard. As we were paying at the nursery, I got "the call" from my RE's office. It went something like this:

Nurse, all cheerful like: "Stay on Follistim and Lupron, come back on Tuesday morning!"

Me, "I have a question. So, I still have my period..."

Nurse, cutting me off, alarmed, "You have your period NOW?!? Hold on while I get the doctor."

Doctor, "You have your period? Usually we wait until day 3 of your period to start you on Follistim but for some reason we didn't do that in your case. Let's see what happens on Tuesday - and we might have to cancel your whole cycle."

So, WTF. I don't even know what to think. If this is a mistake on the part of my REs office, I'm so pissed. I have insurance coverage for which I am eternally grateful (and I know how luck I am), but there is a limit. I don't want to "waste" one of my covered IVFs on a mistake.

I feel like I've been through the ringer on this cycle so far. I am uncomfortable all the time - my ovaries hurt. I'm tired. And, now I'm upset about this. I feel stupid that I didn't know this was a problem. I feel uneducated and like I don't know what is supposed to be happening, so I am not asking the right questions, so my cycle is going wrong. I feel like this is my fault.

I am still bleeding in little drops - so I'm hopeful this all stops. I have an appointment tomorrow. I've tried to do som mor research today to see if I can find more information. Unfortunately, I have meetings all day tomorrow, so I'm not sure if I'll get a chance to talk to the doctor or nurse. Hopefully I can carve out some time to talk to them so I don't have to get voice mail only information tomorrow.

In other news, I am not sure what they hell I'm going to wear to work this week. I don't think anything fits and I'm pretty sure that I'll cry if I have to button my pants. I think I'll have to invest in some Bella bands to get me through this IVF process. Nothing like feeling fat, uncomfortable, and not pregnant while resorting to pregnancy clothes!